Journal 5/15

My earliest memory of what I wanted to be when I grew up is sitting on my mother's lap and watching her study to become a medical assistant. I told my mother I wanted to become a doctor so I could take care of my her and my father.  I remember saying I'll buy her a big house and my father a beautiful ranch with animals. For a long time, making that dream come through was what motivated me to become successful. Overtime, I changed my career goal to something I see myself doing. I tell my parents I'm either going to work in a lab for research or become a pharmacist. I still say I'm going to buy them a big house with a beautiful ranch, but now it might take a little longer because of my career choice.

Journal 5/9/13

The AP exam was as expected. I was able to finish my essays with time to spare and thats because of my practice. By looking at promts and doing multiple choice questions I learned to pace myself. I'm pleased with how I answered the questions and expect at least a 3 on the exam.

JOURNAL 5/8/13

I have to do good tomorrow so I could be exempt from taking summer courses at Cal Poly this summer. With all the practice I've had, I know I'll get at least a 3 on the AP Exam. Tonight I will look over my Lit Analysis one last time, and read over poems that previously been used.

May 7, 2013

JOURNAL TOPIC: Create your own.

Last night I looked over my Lit Analysis to prepare myself for the open prompt question.  I used other blogs as a resource and spent most of my night reading about books. It was time well spent and I remembered the tiny details I had forgotten. I suggest everyone do this within the next couple of days because it's a great way to refresh your memory.

I tried to rewrite an essay last night on the Poisonwood Bible and that's what started my night. I revisited my notes because I failed to remember simple details likes names and their backgrounds. Last night helped out and I feel a lot better going into the open prompt question that before. 

Did it work?

JOURNAL TOPIC:
You've written a lot this week; is there anything left for you to practice/improve over the weekend?  Do you need to practice more multiple choice?  Take inventory-- one last time-- and describe how you will address any areas where you feel less than 100% confident.

I had the chance to test myself this Saturday when I went to Cal Poly for my English Placement Test. It was a timed test and this allowed me to prepare for my AP Test this week. I did better on the multiple choice questions and I know it's because of the repeated practice. I wrote an essay in 45 minutes and was proud to find myself with time left to spare. This week and weekend has improved my writing and allowed me to manage my time wisely. I feel more confident going into this upcoming test than before.

I've been helping myself write better by looking at essay topics and doing a prewrite. By writing out my thoughts, I've seen the flow of my essays improve. I need to work on timing and give myself more than 5 minutes to edit my essays. This is something I'll work on within the next few days.

Another In Class Essay

Sidney uses poetic devices to convey a negative image towards desire. He changes his diction, uses imagery and restates the meanings behind his ideas. He see's desire as evil and want his reader to understand his suffering. 

As you continue to read, you notice his use of diction in every line. Repetition and diction are used together to repeat how damaging desire could be. He has a negative attitude towards this topic, and wants others to see it through his eyes. His beliefs are strong and reinstated throughout the text. By finding a connection between emotion and desire, we feel for his troubling experiences. 

One is able to image his troubled attitude towards desire as he states, "With price of mangled mind, thy worthless ware." Desire comes with a price, and a life lesson to be learned. It's meant to destroy someone and we see that as we continue to read. "But then in vain thou hast my ruin sought," this starts a list of tragic outcomes as we enter his mind and learn why he feels this way.

His negative thoughts for desire become a warning label for readers. He allows us into his mind and shows us his experiences with desire. His attitude is strong for he commits to comparing desire and destruction. He uses personal experience to convey his message and ends with, "Desiring naught but how to kill desire." 

In Class Essay

At Least 2 Essays

Essay # 1

[1994] Poems: “To Helen” (Edgar Allan Poe) and “Helen” (H.D.)

Prompt: The following two poems are about Helen of Troy. Renowned in the ancient world for her beauty, Helen was the wife of Menelaus, a Greek King. She was carried off to Troy by the Trojan prince Paris, and her abduction was the immediate cause of the Trojan War. Read the two poems carefully. Considering such elements as speaker, diction, imagery, form, and tone, write a well-organized essay in which you contrast the speakers’ views of Helen.

In both poems, Helen of Troy is described through contrasting tone, imagery and diction. One poem shows a speaker full of hate, while another a speaker full of love. They see this woman through different eyes, and that allows the poems to contrast. As the poems progress so does their passion for what they see in Helen of Troy. 

In H.D.'s poem, the diction that's describing Helen of Troy is negative but understandable. She displays a negative image of Helen of Troy, as she writes about her many features. She attacks her beauty by saying, "All Greece reviles   the wan face when she smiles." H.D. uses diction to show that Helen of Troy's beauty has a dark side. As for Poe, he uses his diction to portray his love for Helen of Troy. His diction is made up of emotions and comparisons. He compares things to show how strong his love is for her. The speaker uses this method to show he fell in love with her beauty. 

As the poem progresses, H.D. makes Helen of Troy a horrible person. The speaker wanted us to picture Helen of Troy as a woman you wouldn't want to follow. She does this by saying, "All Greece reviles   the wan face when she smiles." The speaker uses imagery to portray an unwanted woman. As you continue to read, her imagine becomes clear. H.D.'s tone wanted Helen of Troy's features to become ugly. Her gloomy tone makes the reader doubt Helen of Troy's appearance.

Unlike H.D., Poe uses imagery to reveal the woman whom he's in-love with. The speaker introduces her beauty and compares it. Poe's tone is romantic, creating an inviting and informal read. He uses this technique to create Helen of Troy's image. "On desperate seas long wont to roam," The speakers tone shifts from happiness to loneliness to prove that his love for Helen of Troy is alive.

Both poems contrast Helen of Troy using similar methods. Tone, imagery and diction allow a reader to see the good or bad of knowing Helen of Troy. One speaker used these techniques to display Helen of Troy as an unwanted woman. Another speaker displayed Helen of Troy as a sweet and motivating woman. Both speakers described Helen of Troy as they saw her, but they each left a contrasting image in our minds. 

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Essay # 2

2006B Poem “To Paint a Water Lily” (Ted Hughes)

Prompt: Read the following poem carefully. Then write an essay discussing how the poet uses literary techniques to reveal the speaker’s attitudes toward nature and the artist’s task.

The poet's attitude is gentle as he tries to paint a picture of a lily. Techniques like imagery and diction help the speaker' attitude and his task. Although he gets distracted, it's done on purpose to describe his surrounding. 

Hughes opens his poem with a gentle lily when he suddenly changes subjects. The poet showed how easily distracted one could be when surrounded by nature. After every few stanzas, the topic changed and one could envision something new. You were able to see, "The flies' furious arena: study These, the two minds of this lady. " The author used imagery to draw our attention to the surrounds of the lily. Nature is what making the lily beautiful. 

Hughes diction is limited to words used in nature. He sets the mood by using detailed diction and it allows a reader to imagine themselves with the lily. "First observe the air's dragonfly That eats meat, that bullets by," he uses this technique to introduce the many creatures that lie within nature. As he changes subjects, his stanza's describe a scene. "Under the trees. There are battle-shouts And death-cries everywhere hereabouts " The poet uses this technique to keep his readers entertained and focused. 

The poet creates an active setting as he attempts to paint a lily. Imagery and diction allow a reader to see nature's beauty. By having multiple interactions with nature, the poet demonstrates his attitude towards nature. By not getting frustrated and being inviting, the reader could see his love and patience for nature. 

Journal: April 26

Select your favorite poem from the work you've done so far this week.  Briefly describe how its language (i.e., diction, syntax, imagery) and structure (rhyme, rhythm, form, shift/s) contribute to your understanding of its meaning.

My favorite poem has to be "If You Forget Me" by Pablo Neruda. I chose this poem from the rest, because I'm able to relate to the words. The diction allows a reader to create an image and understand his message. "Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little." This text is straight forward. As it shifted, I understood that he went from talking about letting go of his partner to becoming a devoted lover. 

Vendler Grid: In You The Earth

In You The Earth

by Pablo Neruda

Vendler Grid

Meaning	The love someone has for mother nature and her growth over time.
Antecedent Scenario	He was appreciating what he had in front of him.
Structural Parts	The shirt occurs after he describes a delicate flower.
Climax	"but suddenly" -It goes from talking about growth/time to features/love.
Other Parts	The beginning differs from the end because it seems likes he's admiring mother nature. He ends by describing woman features, leaving a lasting impression.

Skeleton
Content Genre- games
Tone	Gentle and admiring.
Agency	Mother Nature is the agent throughout the poem.
Roads Not Taken	He could have mentioned
Speech Acts
Outer and Inner Structural Forms
Imagination	Your able to imagine mother nature herself, but as a real woman. His references are vivid and connected to a woman's "body".

TPCASTT: If You Forget Me

“If You Forget Me
― Pablo Neruda

TPCASTT:  Poem Analysis Method: title, paraphrase, connotation, diction, attitude, tone, shift(s), title revisited and theme
Title of poem means	"If You Forget Me" says that if you leave, positive/negative things will come from it.
Paraphrase parts of the Poem	"if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you," -Everything will remind me of our love, as if our love was meant to be.  "If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you." -If you think of me don't decide to come back, because I won't allow it.
Connotation of some of the words – changing literal meaning to implied or associated values
Attitude What is the attitude of the author, characters or yourself?
Shift At first we think or feel one way – then there is a shift:  identify the shifts and explain them	"But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me" -The poem shifts from a lost love to a loyal heart.
Title revisited Any new insights on meaning or significance of title?	The title lets the reader know that a list emotions is about to emerge. You know someone is depending on another's actions, and is about to explain how they feel if left behind.
Theme	The theme is love and loyalty. If not loved back, the narrator will give up everything. If he is loved back, he will do anything for them because "my love feeds on your love"

Vendler Grid: Me And The Mule

Vendler Grid

Meaning	A person isn't truly happy until they become as indifferent to their race as this donkey in the poem.
Antecedent Scenario	The person isn't accepted for who he is, so he expresses himself through the mule.
Structural Parts	The mule knows he is a mule, but others may not accept/ see that. He will become who he wants to be as long as he's okay with it.
Climax	"I'm like that old mule"
Other Parts	The Poet addresses his mule's identity to reflect on his identity.

Skeleton	The poet gets ready to announce his identity.
Content Genre- games
Tone	Demanding.
Agency	The poet is the fieagent.
Roads Not Taken	There should be another stanza in between to create a setting.
Speech Acts
Outer and Inner Structural Forms	There's a change of person. The mule is the agent for the first stanza, then the person is the agent for the ending stanza.
Imagination	Freedom and power come to mind as I read this poem. It sets an individual free from judgement and lets them take control of their character.

7th Reading

Me And The Mule 
by Langston Hughes

My old mule,
He's gota grin on his face.
He's been a mule so long
He's forgotten about his race.


I'm like that old mule --
Black -- and don't give a damn!
You got to take me
Like I am.

• This poem expresses how a person isn't truly happy until they become as indifferent to their race as this donkey in the poem.
• As I repeated it, it reminded me of myself. 
• The last stanza is powerful!
• Words that pop out are: "old mule", "so long", "forgotten his race", and "take me like I am."

Response to Lit Circles: MC Questions

(In Progress)
Slaughterhouse Five

1. d
2. c
3. d
4. c
5. a
6. b
7. b
8. b
9. c
10. c
11. c
12. a
13. c
14. b
15. b
16. a
17. c
18. b
19. b
20. a
21. a
22. a
23. a
24. d
25. a
26. d
27. a
28. c
29. a
30. b
31. b
32. d
33. c
34. c
35. b
36. d
37. b
38. d
39. a
40. b
41. a
42. b
43. b
44. c
45. c
46. d
47. b
48. d
49. a
50. a

Kafka on the Shore

Carrie 

1. c
2. b
3. c
4. b
5. a
6. d
7. b
8. a
9. c
10. c
11. b
12. a
13. a
14. a
15. c

Life of Pi

1. c
2. c
3. b
4. b
5. c
6. b
7. d
8. b
9. c
10. d
11. c
12. a
13. a
14. c
15. a
16. c
17. a
18. b
19. a
20. a
21. b
22. a
23. d
24. d
25. b
26. b
27. d
28. d
29. a
30. a
31. c
32. a
33. b
34. d
35. a

Macbeth

Act 3

Scene I:

· witches' prophecy's come true

· Macbeth & Lady Macbeth become King and Queen

· They talks about the party and Macbeth asks if Banquo will bring Fleance with him

· Macbeth is worried that Fleance will become a King

· He plans on killing Banquo and Fleance

· Macbeth meets with two murderers and emphasizes that Banquo is the cause of their misery

Scene II:

·  Macbeth views Banquo as a threat

· Macbeth is going to do something but he doesn't tell Lady Macbeth his plan

Scene III:

· Three murderers killed Banquo 

· Banquo tells his son to “fly, fly, fly! Thou mayst revenge. O Slave!”

· Fleance fled and Banquo died

 Scene IV:

· One of the murderers came back and reports to Macbeth

· Macbeth is worrying about Fleance's revenge

· The ghost of Banquo exists and sits in Macbeth's seat

·Macbeth saw the ghost of Banquo 

· “Are you a man?” ... Lady Macbeth questions his manhood

· Macbeth is keeping his eyes on Macduff

· He will go find the Weird Sisters and ask them about the ghost

Scene VI:

· Duncan get murdered by his son then they fled / Banquo get murdered then his son fled 

· Macduff goes to England and joins the union of King Edward and Duncan's son

· they are preparing for a war against Macbeth

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Act 4

Scene I:

· Witches calls out a three apparitions to answer Macbeth's question

· First apparition tells Macbeth to beware of the Thane of Fife (Macduff)

· Second apparition says “none of woman born shall harm Macbeth” (Macduff can’t harm him)

· Third says Duncan’s son Malcolm may be able to harm him

· 8 Kings

· One of the Kings comes with “twofold balls and treble scepters carry” (James I of England and James VI of Scotland)

· The witches disappeared

Scene II:

· Macduff’s wife is complaining about Macduff who abandon his family and fled to England

· After Ross leaves, a messenger tells Macduff's wife & son to leave b/c he knew that danger is approaching

· Macduff's wife refuses to leave b/c she has done nothing wrong

·  they all get killed

Scene III:

· Malcolm and Macduff reveal misery in Scotland under Macbeth's rules

· Malcolm doesn't trust Macduff b/c  he had just betrayed Macbeth and has abandoned his wife/son

· Malcolm keeps referring to Macbeth as a tyrant

· Malcolm would rather let Macbeth takes control of the country because he is afraid his unlimited desire for woman will screw up everything

· A doctor shows up and he can cure the patient by touching them

· Ross reports the suffering in Scotland and that Macduff's whole families get killed

· Malcolm and Macduff came to an agreement that they are going to fight back

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Act V

Scene 1:

· A doctor and a gentlewoman of Lady Macbeth are observing Lady Macbeth and her strange nocturnal walking

· She tries to wash off the blood on her hands while Sleepwalking

· She might feel guilt for the murder of Duncan and Banquo

· Doctor says that she needs a divine not physician

Scene 2:

· Malcolm, Macduff and English army troops are approaching Birnam Wood

· Donalbain is not with Malcolm.

· The tyrants are protecting Dunsinane

· The men are ready to fight & die for their country

Scene 3:

· Macbeth is underestimating his enemies due to witches and apparition’s prophecies

· ten thousand soldiers approaching

· Macbeth does not fear death

· Doctor comes to report about Lady Macbeth

·he can’t cure Lady Macbeth sickness b/c  it is within her heart

Scene 4:

· English army is marching toward Dunsinane

· Malcolm orders his soldiers to disguise themselves within the woods in Birnam until they reach Dunsinane

Scene 5:

· The news of Lady Macbeth’s death affects his emotion, and brings his fear of death back

·Lady Macbeth's death has some impact on Macbeth

Scene 6:

· Malcolm and his forces reach the castle

Scene 7:

· Young Siward get killed by Macbeth

· Macduff is seeking for Macbeth

·Macbeth is Macduff only target

·he wants to revenge for his wife/son’s death

· The castle surrendered with little or no resistance

·Macbeth's people go against him

Scene 8:

· Macduff found Macbeth and they battle

· Macbeth repeats the prophecy of anyone who is “woman born” can't harm him

· Macbeth regrets in believing the witches

· Macduff enters with Macbeth's head and  announces that Scotland is free now

· Malcolm becomes the King.

Jane Eyre Questions...

 1. b
2. d
3. d
4. b
5. c
6. a
7. b
8. d
9. e
10. e
11. a
12. d
13. b
14. d
15. d
16. b
17. b
18. e
19. d
20. b
21. e
22. b
23. c
24. c
25. a
26. a
27. b
28. - 32. missing
33. e
34. e
35. a
36. b

Macbeth

 Act I

Scene I
· Three Witches for the opening scene
· bloody battle & character Macbeth

· “Fair is foul, and foul is fair” Paradox
 
Scene II
· Duncan, King of Scotland
· King of Norway and the previous Thane of Cawdor of Scotland
· A wounded Captain reports about the battle and Macbeth’s bravery
· bloody scene of how Macbeth chops off Macdonwald's head and hangs on the battle field
· Duncan announces that they will execute the traitor (Thane of Cawdor) and give title to Macbeth

Scene III
· Witches are evil & dark
·“By each at once her choppy finger laying upon her skinny lips. You should be women, and yet that your beards forbid me to interpret....”
· The witches tell Macbeth that he is going to be offered the title of Thane of Cawdor and eventually become king
· Banquo tells Macbeth: you shouldn't be afraid of you future; and he asks the witches for his future
· Witch: “Lesser than Macbeth, and greater. Not so happy, yet much happier.” (Foreshadows); his child will be king. Then the witches refuse to say anything anymore and vanish
· After Ross  announces that Macbeth is the Thane of Cawdor
· “...murder yet is but fantastical”

Scene IV
· The traitor—Thane of Cawdor has been executed
· Malcolm, Duncan's elder son-The Prince of Cumberland is on line to be the next King
· Macbeth seems him as another threat and something he needs to “overlap” to become King

Scene V
· Lady Macbeth reads a letter from Macbeth
· she is going to “poison” Macbeth with her words in his ears
· “The raven himself is hoarse” symbol and foreshadow 

·Voice of raven foreshadows the evil thing and death
·“unsex me” Lady Macbeth wants to be a man mentally and physically 

· When Macbeth came back, the first thing Lady Macbeth says to him is let's kill the King tonight

Scene VI
· King, Banquo
· arrive at Macbeth’s castle

·Lady Macbeth greets them in a“fake” way

·her plan of murdering the King is obvious

Scene VII
· Macbeth is hesitate to follow Lady Macbeth's plan to kill the King

· the assassination is going to take place in their castle
· People honors Macbeth of his success; he doesn't want to give it away
· Lady Macbeth accuses his cowardice
· Macbeth asks “If we should fail?”
· Their plan is to make Duncan and his guards drunk then make his guards felt guilty of Duncan’s death

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Act II

Scene I
· Fleance is the son of Banquo
· They talk about the witches and questioning their prophecies
· Macbeth“Is this a dagger which I see before me, the handle toward my hand? Come, let me clutch thee! I have thee not, and yet I see thee still...” 
· He made the decision to kill Duncan

Scene II
· Lady Macbeth drugged the chamberlains of the King
· Lady Macbeth was trying to kill Duncan with dagger, but the way he sleeps look like her father
· Macbeth murdered the King and he refused to go back to put the dagger next to the guards
· Lady Macbeth goes back and put the bloody dagger next to the Chamberlains
· “What hands are here? Ha! They pluck out mine eyes! Will al great Neptune's ocean wash this blood clean from my hand?”—water can wash the blood on his hands, but they can't clean the blood in his mind/heart.
· he feels guilty

Scene III
· Lennox gives a description the “unusual night”
· Macduff finds that the King has been murdered and he goes out to tell everyone
· Lennox said that those guards had killed King because their hands and faces were full with blood and the dagger was also in their hands too
· Macbeth says that he killed the guards out of his respect
· Malcolm and Donalbain (Duncan’s son) decided to go separate ways to keep themselves safer

·Malcolm goes to England

·Donalbain goes to Ireland
 Scene IV
· Ross and an Old Man are discussing the strange event
· unusual that King the got killed and his sons fled instead of taking over the crown
· Macduff announces that Macbeth is ready to be officially crowned
· Duncan's body has been carried to Colmekill

· Colmekill is the modern island of Iona
· “God’s benison goes with you, and with those that would make good of bad, and friends of foes!” 

Practice Test 1

1. E
2. A
3. E
4. C
5. A
6. A
7. D
8. D
9. D
10. B
11. A
12. E
13. E
14. D
15. D
16. C
17. A
18. E
19. D
20. C
21. B
22. C
23. B
24. B
25. C
26. C
27. A
28. C
29. B
30. C
31. D
32. D
33. D
34. D
35. C
36. D
37. E
38. C
39. D
40. D
41. B
42. C
43. A
44. C
45. C
46. E
47. B
48. E
49. A
50. D
51. B
52. C
53. C
54. E

Macbeth notes

-Guy wants to become king, they kill many ppl & ghost come back to haunt them... in the end Macbeth and his wife defeated
-distinguished factor of heros we know is they dnt want to be heroes
-evolution of hero is they became  antihero
-Claudius is an evil guy in king robes
-king supposed to be good because he's supposed to be the closest thing to God
-tone sinister
-Macbeth is evil play
-everything is steaming & dirty & bloody
-1606 play written
-James I fascinated by witchcraft
- banquo & fleance --- inherited thrown through them
-real rein 1040 to 1057 Macbeth
-ducen murder well known
-ruled for 17 yrs
-Scotland & England on good terms
-Shakespeare's Macbeth felt bad for killing king
-Macbeth is an animal
-"fair is fowl & fowl is fair" paradox
-witches were compared to darkness & death
-society telling us " desperate to be good so we'll show you bad"
-why witchcraft was needed
-2 yrs before Macbeth written witchcraft became a capital crime
-banquo realized ability of witchcraft
-witches could do many things
-bodies of unbaptized babies were a prize to witches
-supernatural villian
-end -- satisfying seeing Macbeth get bad misfortunes
-witches not dishonest
-they dnt deceive Macbeth but they dnt stop him from deceiving himself
-temptation

Morning Topic

• what makes a program dominant
• first thing he did was tell his players to take off his shoes and socks
• wanted to teach them how to put on their socks
• put socks wrong way you get blisters which leads to playing wrong
• every little edge he could find to help them succeed was what he did
• why socks & why haircuts? 
• value system: goal is more important than anyone's identity

1. starting tonight-- start getting more than 6 hrs of sleep at night / 7-9 hrs of sleep 
2. eat right-- 3 balanced meals a day / stay away from sugary drinks / lean protein & avocado & apple carbohydrates / 3 hours apart 
3. exercise-- atleast 30 minutes of it

• practice & work

AP Resources

1. https://benchprep.com/blog/category/high-school/ap-literature-composition/
2. http://www.webenglishteacher.com/ap.html
3. http://apcentral.collegeboard.com/apc/public/courses/teachers_corner/2124.html
4. http://www.appracticeexams.com/ap-english-literature
5. http://www.kn.att.com/wired/fil/pages/listaplitma.html

Brave New World-- 11 to 18

Chapter 11
-Bernard stabs the director in the back
-Bernard was the guardian of a Savage (John)
-people revered him
-talks of someone giving Bernard alcohol in his embryo development were silent
-Bernard's job is to look out for the John
-he take notes on John thoughts as if he were an experiment
-Bernard brags to Helmholtz about the attention he is getting from being the guardian John
-Helmholtz does not share the enthusiasm that Bernard shares for this feat so Bernard gets upset and decides to leave him
-Lenina might be developing feelings for John
-She liked Bernard because he was different and initially denied her, but eventually (with the help of soma) slept with her
-John refuses to sleep with Lenina because that is childish
-Since Lenina helped "discover" John, she gets to run errands with John when Bernard is busy
-Lenina and John are together in this scene
-The machine is designed to give you sensations and hear noises that are provocative
-During the process, you watch a movie called Three Weeks in a Helicopter
-a dark man and a woman are together
-the dark man develops feelings for her and the woman declines those feelings
-the dark man stalks her and kidnaps her on a helicopter for three weeks
-Three Alphas manage to rescue her and in gratitude she becomes their woman in a polygamy relationship
-John doesn't like the film
-Lenina hopes that her & John might sleep together
-instead John steps into a different cab and says "Good night" 


Chapter 12
-Bernard sets up an extravagant party to host the savage (John) and show him off
-Arch Community-Songster of Canterbury, a celebrity, is invited to the party
-After the day with Lenina John does not want to see anyone 
-Bernard's shouting outside John's room
-he refuses to leave his room
-John's reading Romeo & Juliet
-Bernard begs him to come out because this is his opportunity to shine in the community
-Everyone uses sex & drug to escape everything
-Everyone, including the songster, gets angry because they were denied to see John
-People began to ridicule Bernard
-“I knew it the whole time that someone accidentally slipped alcohol in his embryo-state.” 
-People left the party 
-Bernard’s fame as well as his ego got reduced to below average.
-Bernard goes to Helmholtz to reconcile because of his bad behavior 
-Helmholtz is more than happy to reconcile


Chapter 13
-Lenina is a bit down because she has obviously developed feelings for John who denies her. --Henry asks Lenina out but she declines 
-shes upset about something 
-doesn't want to go out with anyone
-Lenina asks her friend Fanny for aid
-Fanny can't believe Lenina couldn't get John 
-Fanny basically says to take charge 
-Lenina visits John
-John told Lenina that he loved her
-Lenina starts stripping 
-John yells at her and calls her a "strumpet" which is basically a prostitute
-He pushes her and yells to leave
-She grabs some of her clothes and runs in the restroom to redress
-While she is changing, John gets a call from the hospital
-his mother is ill
-Linda is near to death


Chapter 14
-Park Lane Hospital
-John flies to the hospital and weeps by his mother's bed 
-asks if there's anything to save her "No''
-"Hug me till you drug me honey."
-She momentarily wakes up and says "Pope'' at the sight of her son 
-John is obviously mad because she is so "high" she can barely recognize him 
-Some kids (twins) enter the room to see her
-they talk about her appearance
-John yells at them to leave
-A nurse comes in and says the kids are being conditioned to accept death. 
-She threatens to kick out John but John eventually leaves
-Linda dies in this chapter 


Chapter 15

-John is leaving the hospitol

-the nurse has to return to give the kids soma so that John doesn't interfere with conditioning

-John is outraged that kids are taking drugs

-all 162 Delta came for "soma distribution"

-John repeats "O. Brave New World.. O, Brave New World.."

-he says that soma is poison

-John grabs the drugs and "frees" everyone by dumping the drugs out the window

-Bernard and Helmholtz are called for assistance

-the police come and calm down the crowd with drugs

-John, Helmholtz and Bernard are arrested

Chapter 16

-someone asks John "So you don't like much civilization"

-John says "yes"

-Bernard is becoming selfish

-John quotes from Shakespeare multiple times
-the person tells him the old things have been burned 
-John dislikes new things and expresses that
-everyone is okay with how the new world is
-soma causes liberty
-they have to sacrifice a lot because of what they chose
-they can't replace a persons passion for something
-John doesn't like Delta
-they say that Delta do so much for them
-civil war broke out and thousands of men lost their lives
-world controller took over the island
-Controller asks to take Bernard out
-Iceland is where ppl have a self concious
-he choice to be a world director instead of going to Iceland
-knowledge was highest good
-truth was supreme valley
-mass productions triggers changes
-they emphasis the truth
-ppl are interested in beauty and health
-Controller asks Helmhortz where he wants to go
-he said somewhere with bad weather "winds & storms"
-Falkland Island

Chapter 17

-the controller and John are alone

-Controller tells John they're giving up beauty/truth & religion

-John cant respond to that

-Controller shows John a copy of all his different books

-people don't read them, it disappeared like God

-no one needs or wants God in Brave New Wrorld

-no misery or fear of death in old age

-Controller believes there's a God but "he modifies himself as an absence" now

-they blame civilization

-people never like to be alone

-self denial (industrial civilization = no self denial)

-no need for anyone to be heroic

-soma's always available to forget the unhappy things

-John says "Life is about Suffer; we should be proud of life and suffer"

-John claims all rights to be unhappy: "sin, God, poetry, real danger, freedom.."

-the Controller adds: "pain, cancer, sickness, old.."

Chapter 18

-Helmholtz & Bernard find John and he looks ill

-Bernard feels sorry for what he did the other day

-Controller doesn't let John go with Bernard

-John wants to be alone

-Leaves away from London

-John begins to pray to God that night asking for forgiveness

-he climbs up to a light house

-John is living on his own in a lighthouse

-Reporters want to talk to John

-they sneak a few shots of John hitting himself

-they want him to take soma

-Fans come over and even Lenina comes over and someone sings "orgy porgy" starts

-John wakes up the next morning realzing what he has done

-He kills himself by jumping off light house